Elegance & Beauty

I have a confession to make.

I miss this girl lorryload. :( I badly want to see her. There are a lot of things that I’ve been wanting to share with her. I need to spill out every single thing to her. She’s my one and only confidante. Nur Azizah, meet me pretty soooon pleaseeee. :( :(

Somehow I’m not feeling that good right now. I have been thinking alot about the bad dream I had a few nights ago. It’s really affecting me. What if it happen for real? It’s worrying me. I am really not prepared for it. I am not prepared to face a new obstacle right now. Just not yet. Not when I’ve just managed to pull through the difficulties you had put me to face a few months back. Give me the strength that I need , ya Allah. I can’t bear to see another sadness in her face. I really can’t. .
I think I’m thinking too much. Well, that’s because I treasure it. It meant the world to me. I’ve been praying every night hoping that things will get better. That things will change. That everything will get back to how it used to be. One fine day I hope God will grant my wish. I really hope He will.

This kind of feelings just make me feel want to go to sleep. And what more, I am feeling groggy right now. The temptation to crawl to bed and sleep my night away is high. But I can’t, I still got a bit of studying to do for my final UT tomorrow.

Ok, I’ve got nothing more to say. I don’t know how to end this entry. Ok I guess it ends here.

Byebye.

10:09 PM

I am supposed to study right now but somehow my brains refused to digest anything at this moment. Ok anyway, these are the pictures we took after FYP presentation the other day. Actually I’ve got nothing much to say. ok, so ya, only pictures in this post.

Liana and I.

Iqah, Liana & 3/4 of Wan's group ( Kholique, Niezza, Wan) . I wasn't smiling properly, that girl beside me almost made me laugh.

The lepak session @ Marina Sq.

I don't even know what I was trying to do. And that Wan took a close-up pic of us. haha. Thanks eh Wan.

The "perfectly" taken pictures of the 3 beauties. :)

See, she loves me. :)

Ok, that's all. These are only some of the pictures we took, the rest are too 'nice' to be displayed.

alright, cherios;

6:15 PM

Finally, I can declare that FYP1 is officially over. No more staying-back-late-at-school days and the sleepless nights. Well, at least for now. FYP2 has yet to start. & I shall not talk about it now; I don’t want the stress of FYP2 to sink in just yet. :)

The presentation yesterday wasn’t that good, but still it wasn’t that bad too. The two assessors didn’t look friendly at all like how we expected them to be. In fact, we were intimidated by them. They bombarded us with those kinds of questions that made us look like as if we didn’t really put in much effort in doing the project. I somehow got demoralized by that. But I’m glad that at least we were able to answer all of their questions.

When it was all over, I took quite some time to settle down. Ok I shall not elaborate on this. My dear Zizah, I need to meet u soon. I really need to. I need to talk to u about this. I think you’re the only person who’ll understand the situation I’m facing now.

Ok, that’s it for FYP update; I don’t know what more to say. Actually I intended to write much much longer than this, but somehow I’m running out of words. I’m both mentally and physically exhausted.

I couldn't upload pictures that we took after FYP presentation. The internet connection seems to have an issue with me. :( I'll upload them in the next post.

10:54 PM

As the date is drawing nearer, I’m getting more and more nervous. I’m afraid that I might screw up during presentation on that day. I’m praying hard that I can pass this FYP1. I really hope I can. InsyaAllah.

I think I did quite badly for all the UT3s. I don’t really have the time to study for UT3s as FYP had taken all my time away. And now, I’m going to study real hard for UT4s. I don’t want to get any grades lower than a B for all UT4s considering that my daily grades now are not really satisfactory. There are quite a few Xs and red marks grades for all the modules. Not good.

I can’t wait for the semester to end. But I’m not anticipating for the next semester to begin. Really. Year 3 life is as not as easy as I thought it would be. Sadded.

I don’t know what more I can talk about now. My mind’s just occupied with FYP FYP and more FYP.

All the best to me & my team.

9:14 PM

I'm extremely exhausted now. I really can't wait for Monday to pass by. I just want to be able to go home at a normal timing everyday when school ends which is at 4pm. I have been making school as my home for the past few weeks. :( sad.
I MISS MY HOME TERRIBLY. I MISS SPENDING QUALITY TIME WITH MY FAMILY. =(
Monday, please pass by fast.. ticktockticktock.

Today I did not attend class. Because of fyp la. & so I stayed the whole day alone at the Library. Was msning Liana and she made me look like a mad person by making me laugh so hard. Yes, take note that I was alone. haha. She sent me what she wrote in her rj for sales management module. The question looks something like this : "How far will you go to close a sale?". I'm not sure of the exact question but it's somewhere along that line. And read what she wrote:

"I will not go very far to close a sale. Although I have
not been the database, this is how it looks like. As I
am more of a buyer than a seller, I know what buyers are
looking for and and give them a good sales. I myself do
not like the certain way sales are being handled i her
current company. I am planning to that they gave me a
beard me Vios. For fake good, Singapore does take quite
a effective rule from number one."

Hahah. The whole paragraph doesn't make sense at all, especially those sentences in red. Haha this is what fyp did to her. hahaha
I wasn't alone in the library throughout, I joined Wan's team later in the afternoon.

Ouh the case is finally solved. I mean almost solved. The responsible culprit has been made to pay a sum of fines. And now my parents are trying to get compensation money from him for the hospital expenses and damages done to papa's bike. I can see the glow in mama's face yesterday. I can feel the pain she'd been through and it really hurt me to see her having to face this. Well, I have long forgiven that man. It's just not right to hold grudges. Like I've said before, I'm taking this as a test from the One above. I've always believe that whatever happens in life, there's always a blessing in disguise. All I need to do is to accept things as it is and have patience in going through it. :)

Ok, I'm going to do the necessary things now.

cherios;
:)

11:36 PM

I love Wednesday, 9th of July. Met the supervisor earlier in the day. After presenting to him our almost completed project, I shot him with a burning question. Haha I think my team mates didn't expect me to ask him that kind of question. I felt a bit relieved when he told us that he definitely won't fail us. Well that's only 50% of the overall result. The other half depends on how we performed during the presentation. :)
I felt happy today. And that Liana had to make me laugh so hard just now. Haha. Actually it's fun to work on fyp with Wan's group around.
Oh I'm very satisfied with my banking ut2. Ut1 was such a killer and I did quite bad for it. Ut2 was much2 better and I'm able to get an A! Alhamdulillah. :)
Hard work pays you see.

I won't be attending class tmr. Again. I have to. I'll be in the library the whole day. I need to get the website completed by tomorrow cause we'll have to show the supervisor our completed work on Friday. Super rush.

ok, i'm going to continue doing fyp now.

cherios
;)

12:45 AM

Hi all,

I'm actually feeling super exhausted now. It's only the first day of the week & my energy is worn out already. Bad. Sadded man. :(
Niway, ya, the reason why I'm still awake now is not because of FYP. I don't know, lots of things have been occupying my mind lately. I've been thinking a lot lately. That's part of the reason why I'm more reserved than usual nowadays.
I don't know how to put it in words the things that have been playing in my mind.
You know, I don't know why I got all emotional just now. Out of the blue, my eyes were teary while I was on the way home in the bus just now. Seriously, I have no idea what triggered this. I think maybe it's because of too much stress that I'm going through right now. I don't know how to go about describing this la.

I'm missing my family dearly. I missed those happy times we had. I missed those closed bonds we used to have. I simply missed everything that used to exist in the house, with a family of 6. Now, things changed =( . Ok, I shall not disclose anything here.

FYP date of submission is drawing near... I can't wait to get over & done with this fyp1. I ' m praying hard hoping that I'll pass this fyp. Hopefully my hard works are paid off. InsyaAllah. FYP meeting with the 2 girls just now was rather fun. Ok, they cheered me up amidst the pressure we're having. I haven't been that crazy for quite a long time && thanks to Liana & her antics, I became like one of her species. hahah.

Zizah darling, i MISS you.. =( We must meet up once EVERYTHING's over aite. I want see you. I want see you. I want see you.

** The dream yesterday seemed so real.. K nvm, get over it la.**

1:34 AM