Elegance & Beauty

Results for AY0809 Semester 1 are out. And how’s my result?? Not like what I expected. I was quite excited to see my results upon knowing that it has been released. I was expecting to see good grades for this semester. I was hoping that at least my grades this semester could pull up my overall GPA. Cause I know I have improved quite a lot this semester as compared to the previous ones. And what more, most of the modules that I took this semester are repeated modules. I’m very satisfied with the grades that I am able to produce for these repeated modules. BUT.. upon seeing my results just now, my heart sank. My overall GPA dropped tremendously. Oh crap. Why is that so?? Because for all the repeated modules, I got a P(pass) grade which is equivalent to a grade point of 2.0. I am supposed to get at least a B grade for all. I didn’t know that for all the repeated modules, they’ll convert your grades to a P grade if you are able to get at least a C grade for all. So even though if you’ve gotten an A grade, you’ll still be downgraded to a P grade. Had I known about this earlier, I should not have worked really hard for this semester. Or better still, I should go with my instinct. I should not have wasted my time in this school. I should have just go somewhere else, and do much better there. I should have followed my dear azizah to nyp. I should just do that. It’s all too late now. I feel so demoralized right now. I can never do well in studies. i can never make my parents proud of me. Up to this date, I have yet to achieve something that I can be proud of. Nothing. I feel so useless. Do I really deserve to be a failure???? Am I that stupid?? i did not do well in O level and I thought when I’m in college I want to prove to myself and to the people around me that I am capable of doing much better. I guess that’ll never happen. No matter how hard I work, I can never succeed academically. Never. Now tell me how should I look forward for school for the coming semester? How??

I seriously want to cry.…

9:51 PM

At some point of time in your life, you know just who your friends are and who are the people who really care for you. When you’re facing difficulties in life, you know exactly who are those people who’ll stand by you no matter what, will not stop caring for you and just be there for you, making sure you’re ok. It is in this kind of situation that you can tell who are the ones who are good at pretending; pretending to care because they too want to be so called involved in your life. You’ll know who are the ones who fit to be labeled as hypocrites.

Experiences has taught me to be a wise person. And at the same time, it has taught me to be careful of whom I can trust. And it has made me do things I hate – eliminating people from my life. What’s the point of keeping them when they don’t appreciate your existence, least to even acknowledge you as someone in their life? It’s useless; I can’t be bothered to entertain such people.

Oh, as promised I’m sharing with you some words of wisdom i quote from somewhere. Read this & think about it:

“With each fall you experienced in life, you gain extra ounce of knowledge. Happiness does not come from blaming the world of your problems, it comes from how you deal with them. You can choose to be angry or to take it as a lesson learnt. One must always remember that it is not the books that determine our fate – we are the drivers of our own destiny.” – Debra Tan, quoted from Vanilla magazine.

6:54 PM

Heee.. I like my current blogskin now. The sunflower and butterfly compliment the layout. I like it. :)

Holidays are ending pretty soooon. Frankly speaking, I dread school. I think because I’m not really enjoying what I’m learning in school. My interest is more to science stuffs and not business or IT or anything related. Don’t ask me why I chose that course in the first place. :S

When school reopens, the stress is going to sink in. And for this semester, I’m going to do my fyp2 properly and I’m going to take it very very seriously. And I make sure this time round I can achieve my target grade for fyp2. It has to be either an A or a B. I don’t care, I’m going to work really hard for it. I desperately need to get that desired grade. I hope I can, insyaAllah.

Somehow I am looking forward for the month of Ramadhan to come by. :) A month full of goodness, full of blessings. I hope I am able to do a lot of good deeds in this month of Ramadhan. ;) I simply can’t wait.

Ok what else I want to say eh? Hmm.. nothing more I think. Oh in my next entry I’ll share with u an inspiring words of wisdom I quote frm somewhere. I lazy type now. heh.

Ok tts all,

Cherios

12:01 AM

"You won’t appreciate the little good things in life if you keep running away from the pain and difficulties you’re put to face in life. "

Well, this is indeed true. One has to go through a certain level of hardship in life in order to know and feel the good things in life. By this, one can then learn to appreciate every little advantages that he/she has. :)

Be grateful of what you have in life, my dear friends. Don’t start appreciating something when you’re already losing it. That’ll be too late and no, you can never turn back time to make any amendments. You’ll only have yourself to feel sorry for.

I do believe in miracles. I really do. :)

9:42 PM