A lot of things have been sitting in my mind lately. But I simply don’t know how to put them in words. Nvm, whatever words I can use to form sentences which make sense I’ll just type it down. BUT I’ll filter out those which I think are quite sensitive to be displayed here. Maybe the sensitive ones I’ll put it in my other blog. And that depends on my mood. :)
So far, school’s been quite ok for me now. I am able to handle everything quite well. I’ve been attending classes religiously this semester. I can say that I’ve been doing good this semester compared to the previous ones. And most importantly I don’t skip classes anymore like nobody’s business. At least if I did now, it’s with valid reasons. I’d like to thank someone, who somehow in a way or another, has been a motivator for me to keep going on to school everyday. In what way, I shall not say it here. :)
I think some of you may know that after I graduate from rp, I very much would like to pursue my studies in NIE. Yes, I aspire to be a teacher. Teaching is actually my 2nd dream career. My 1st dream career is actually to be a nurse ( my closed ones know how much I love to be one. Hehe.). But with some reasons I can’t be. So, lucky I have a backup career which I can be in future. However, I’m doubtful that I can achieve to be a teacher in future. Reason: My mom actually secretly hope that I’ll start working straight away as soon as I graduate from rp. One reason why - when I started working and have my own income, it’ll lessen my parents’ burden in having to support all the costs for schooling. This includes my daily expenses, bus fare, school fees and all. When I think about it, well I can understand my mom’s wish. My parents are ageing and they are no longer as active and energetic as they used to be. And if I were to further my studies in NIE, it will take some time before I can start earning my own income to support my parents. But again, if I were to take up another few more years to study, the time I invested will be for a long term investment. I’m still unsure of what I’m going to do after graduate. I definitely need to get information about studying in NIE.
Lately, I have been thinking about something. Something which every one of us is scared to go through. Ever since that day when one of my relatives met with an accident and couldn’t manage to pull through, I’ve been thinking how will it be if my time is up too.. and when will that time be.. it’s scary to think about this but I cant help it, every night I have difficulties sleeping as I’m afraid I won’t wake up the next day. That’s my biggest fear for now. And what more, to add on to the fear, another thing that worries me is that, will I be able to notice the signs which will be an indication that my time is up soon. Cause the signs that my relative had shown a few weeks before he’s gone is not obvious at all. His family members started to realize it only when he’s no longer in this world. Im not going to disclose what the signs are. Not for any random people to know.
Well I think I’ve poured almost everything out already. I know this post is super duper long. Ok la tts all for now.
Tata. 
