Changes. In life, changes are inevitable. Whether you like it or not you’ll have to accept it. Adapting to a change may be awkward initially. But as time goes by, you’ll get used to it. This applies to a change of environment. Be it a change of school, a change of work place or even a change of residential area. But what if you’re facing a change of a human’s characters? Worst still, a change of a human’s heart? How will you react and cope in the situation mentioned? I don’t mind having to face a change of environment. Because I am immune to those kind of changes. But not the latter change. It is those kinds of human changes that bother me and sometimes it drives me nuts. Though I have had experiences of those kinds of changes, I am yet to get immune. I don’t know. Is it just me or the world just doesn’t get enough? I am tired. But I know I need to have patience to go through this test. I know and I have realized that this is just one of God’s ways to test my faith towards Him. And that’s what I have been doing all this while; putting all my faith in Him. Ok well this is not the point I wish to put across. Let me just get straight to the point.
I am still in a state of shock with some facts that I’ve found out recently. I’ve known this fellow for quite some time. Let’s name this fellow M shall we? M and I used to be very close once. Then, I had always admired M for M’s personality. I’d always looked up to M whenever I faced a downfall. I had always thought that M is someone who always keeps to *his/her words. I trusted M cause I believe that M is true to him/herself. I had always respected M for the way M handled things in life. Easy to say M used to be my source of inspiration in life. Then slowly, I see the changes in M. I don’t know what has been going through in that little head of M. M is no longer the M I used to know. It saddened me to see M not the way M used to be. I don’t know how to describe about this. All I know is that M’s changes is affecting me. I had always hold on to M’s words. I had always keep M’s words safe in my head. Up till now M’s words are still fresh in my head. I guess with the situation now I have to let go of M’s words. Now, I realized that M’s words are not worth belonging to any meaning. I don’t understand M anymore…
*M’s true identity can’t be revealed. M is just another human being I know.*
Well whatever it may be, I’m facing this obstacle with much patience. I am coping with it and am persevering.Labels: changes
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