Results for AY0809 Semester 1 are out. And how’s my result?? Not like what I expected. I was quite excited to see my results upon knowing that it has been released. I was expecting to see good grades for this semester. I was hoping that at least my grades this semester could pull up my overall GPA. Cause I know I have improved quite a lot this semester as compared to the previous ones. And what more, most of the modules that I took this semester are repeated modules. I’m very satisfied with the grades that I am able to produce for these repeated modules. BUT.. upon seeing my results just now, my heart sank. My overall GPA dropped tremendously. Oh crap. Why is that so?? Because for all the repeated modules, I got a P(pass) grade which is equivalent to a grade point of 2.0. I am supposed to get at least a B grade for all. I didn’t know that for all the repeated modules, they’ll convert your grades to a P grade if you are able to get at least a C grade for all. So even though if you’ve gotten an A grade, you’ll still be downgraded to a P grade. Had I known about this earlier, I should not have worked really hard for this semester. Or better still, I should go with my instinct. I should not have wasted my time in this school. I should have just go somewhere else, and do much better there. I should have followed my dear azizah to nyp. I should just do that. It’s all too late now. I feel so demoralized right now. I can never do well in studies. i can never make my parents proud of me. Up to this date, I have yet to achieve something that I can be proud of. Nothing. I feel so useless. Do I really deserve to be a failure???? Am I that stupid?? i did not do well in O level and I thought when I’m in college I want to prove to myself and to the people around me that I am capable of doing much better. I guess that’ll never happen. No matter how hard I work, I can never succeed academically. Never. Now tell me how should I look forward for school for the coming semester? How??
I seriously want to cry.…
